"saying what i want, cause they'll judge me anyways"
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Dealing with stress
posted on Tuesday, 8 March 2016 @ 08:19 | permalink
Hey guys,I'm so so sorry for not posting recently, but i really didn't have the time or energy to do so! School has been pretty intense lately, with all the assignments, tests & projects, i barely have time for myself anymore!! Anyways here's just of the highlighted recaps of events occurring in my life. My clique & I went for a short trip to Malaysia And when i mean short i really do mean short! it was a one day trip to Johor Bahru where by we went to an awesome burger place called "Fat Burger", shopped a little and went for Hookah. It was fun going to Hookah mainly because most of them have never tried it before! However the night before i had a slumber party where Cheryl, Sarah & AJ slept over. It was pretty fun and chill, we basically had a couple of beers while chilling, eating popcorn, gossiping and watching Friends With Benefits! (Oh my god Mila Kunis) So yeah, that weekend was uber fun. paperwork, Paperwork, PAPERWORK So yeah, being in the course that i am in requires us to do an absurd amount of paperwork which is basically called "Preproduction" right before filming starts. And honestly, it has not been easy, i'm not saying that my group is incompetent but as the day goes by and the deadline to hand up gets closer, i get more anxious. I'm sure that my group members feel it too and i can see that some of them are getting more on the ball with the matters at hand and i'm truly grateful for that, but it's just a few individual that's really pissing me off. I'm not gonna say names cause i get it, some people are just not cut out for preproduction and that's fine, but man is it tough to manage a group of 18. Dealing with it The feelings to smoke again is at it's all time high but i'll give myself a hundred reasons not to and the feeling will just go away. I'm really trying my hardest not to flare up and i'm grateful that my clique is there to help and support me but still, i find myself being easily annoyed by the tiniest thing. However how i used to deal with stress were by smoking, drinking & binging. It doesn't take a genius to know that all 3 of them are bad which also contributed to my ridiculous weight gain in the past so i'm really trying not to. Smoking and drinking wise, i'm pretty determined not to, i mean you need the cash to actually do things like that and i just know i can spend it on better things. Binging wise, well it's been the toughest battle of them all because i'm constantly asking myself whether i'm really hungry, stressed or plainly bored. So far, binging has been an uphill battle, a lot of times I'd give in to temptation even though i have a no food after 7pm rule, i really can't help myself and the worst part when i'm eating, i'll feel terrible. I'm super determined now and i know i can't let my temptations get the better of me. Stay tuned okay guys! Promise i'll update soon!! Nights! See you guys!
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